a blog?

it's true that i used to have a blog in high school...actually, it was an online journal. severely different, really. those are where you write all your intimate feelings about boys and friends and life with the knowledge that no one actually reads it but with a small glint of hope that maybe someone will read it and care? hah! mostly just dramatic feelings. oh, to be a teenager again.
not that i am too far past that, but i feel like i am? scratch that-i definitely am.

thanks to andrea for getting me to sign up for this :)
(even if you are the only one who reads it, hermanita...jaja)

life is basically moving at a fast forward pace right now...the past five months have been a huge whirlwind with ups and downs, but mostly ups :)





rafael and i met last spring, started dating in may, and got married on september 1st :) we now live together in midtown and are transforming our little town house into a real home, which is super fun. playing house for real? i never thought that would happen...buut it has and i am so so thankful.



school is stressing me out as usual...sometimes i feel confident about it-like, if i really just bust this out, or study this much time here and learn this and this and this, i can do it.
and then sometimes (more often than not) i feel like i will never be good at this school thing. thats probably just me being hard on myself, but its so hard not to get sucked down that tunnel. its really refreshing when you don't go there (the tunnel with no cheese), i just have to find that power within me somewhere...hmm. seems like it should be easy or something. negative.

on another note, rosh hashanah was on monday night and it makrs the beginning of the jewish new year. we eat apples and honey for a "sweet (literally) new year" and its always nice because its a happy holiday and in 10 days comes yom kippur, the saddest holiday of the year - the day of atonement. anyhow, my dad was saying something about how on rosh hashanah (and this is very figuratively, of course), it is your chance to be re-inscribed into the Book of Life. each new year, we get to celebrate this - no matter what happened in the past year, good and bad, its like our clean slate.
i kind of like this idea...and it's fitting because i am definitely starting a new, huge chapter in my life right now. sure, im still in school (and still ready to be out...) but coming back to school, moving off campus, getting married, being a fourth year, and basically now taking control of more responsibilities in life is all happening at ONCe. and its GREAT! it really and truly is wonderful. just a little overwhelming and tiring sometimes...but i guess thats life, right? truuuue dat.

i feel so so lucky to have such a wonderful family and awesome friends and i absolutely love all of them :) that pretty much explains itself.

im at school right now, in between classes and mentally stressing about how on earth im going to learn computer science and german history by friday morning, but i did just find this cute cute little cafe/eisnteins in the environmental science and technology building quad (these buildings are awesome and very new and gorgeous) and im sitting by the window with this awesome view of Atlanta and its encouraging and nice and makes me feel better :) also, my favorite Mana song just came on...yes. not Tiburon, andrea, but a second best. hehe

other than that...here are some recent favorite pictures :)